What a surrendering and totally open and honest article you have written here. I am first writing to inform you of my receiving your email and reading it. You had mentioned that you had concerns if people were getting your emails.
Julie, I see so many parallels in our lives happening at different times, but none the less, happening. My honest battle lies with my unwillingness to pay attention to myself in probably the most important areas of my life. Childhood traumas. I was kidnapped and abandoned, yes, by a family member who was also physically and emotionally / verbally abusive. It's had a way of helping me to not deal with and quit looking at other things. It's been so much easier to just say, "Ah, suck it up! Knock it off, it wasn't that bad, you weren't hurt, and you made it out just fine. You're too old now to be pondering the past."
Enough of that. There's been much I've wanted to say to you on several occasions but, shut down. I just found many things you were writing about to be close to what I was experiencing. Well, for instance, we both are in medical and see the insane things happening in that field. I'll just leave that there.
I'll be looking out for more of your articles. I, like you, have many interests and am constantly working on self realization. It's been decades. Thanks so much for the generous sharing. It's well appreciated.
You and I have been connected on FB for years but haven't ever really interacted that much. I had no idea you were in healthcare (you may have mentioned it before) but you would understand my most recent blog post like few others!
Thank you for letting me know that you received my blog. That is super helpful! I was very surprised not to get any feedback whatsoever as it is such a sensitive topic!
About your childhood: the grief, confusion, and anger that must be buried in there for you...those childhood wounds are incredibly potent until we let them come to the surface for healing. That has been my work for the past 5 years. Ignoring it doesn't really work, as you know. But you have to be in a safe time and space (and with people you trust) to be able to face those things.
I am finding SO MUCH healing and empowerment through my new perspectives from astrology, New Thought, and reincarnation. All together I am learning how to empower myself through my past traumas and make sure they don't keep following me, namely abandonment and scarcity.
Reach out any time if you want to engage on these topics (email or FB messenger). Thank you so much for taking time to comment and share your heart equally vulnerably!
Thanks Julie. I am an RT who bought your book, Raising Hell. I learned of you either through Jim Palmer or Claire. I still have much to study in that area, and am just getting around to reading a book called, "The Bible Tells Me So", by Peter Enns. I've always planned to seek out some of the books regarding Jewish interpretation and realize Peter Enns offers that in this book so far.
I have sent you many informative articles on vaccines and the unknown harm they were doing back in 2020 - 2022, and also several articles on the mistreat and firings of employees, unlawful mandates, and outrageous practices that were happening to patients with CV!9 that were taking place in hospitals in CA and across the nation. I'm sure you were receiving plenty from others.
Just a brief message to, perhaps, trigger a memory of who I am.
Oh yes, it does trigger memory that we were interacting then. It was such an important time to have validation in our medical institutions. I did remember that we had interacted before but not the specifics before you jogged my memory.
I have a beautiful recommendation on Jewish Kabbalah views of God that was my first intro to Kabbalah and made me fall in love with it: "The SEcret Life of God" by Rabbi David Aaron. I also loved "Everything is God," by Jay Michaelson (more Kabbalah).
Yes! The Secret Life of God was very early in my deconstruction. It's the mystical view on the nature of God and felt so healing to me after the narrow, small, petty, toxic god of Christianity. The EIG book...it was my first layer of what I'm now really grasping and integrating. I don't remember specifics but I know it was really impactful!
I found you on Rethinking God With Tacos. Wow, our stories are similar. Only, I didn’t come out unscathed from my date with the guy despite my resistance (insert religious shame and isolation put upon me when I shared what happened to me with a mentor of mine), and I’m still on the questioning phase and trying not to shame myself for the thoughts and/or feelings I may experience. My husband is aware of my past with women (2 relationships), it is an open dialogue.
This transparent presentation is clear cut and truly expresses answers to questions on my heart.
I just HATE how Christianity blames women for any "disgrace" or moral "sins" and does not support them—even when the women are innocent. In my first marriage during various counseling experiences with pastors or elders when my marriage was falling apart, I was always the focus. Because women are tasked with the responsibility to win their husbands over with a "quiet and gentle spirit." Even though my husband at the time was ruining our marriage with drinking and unfaithfulness, nobody called him out. It was all on me, according to them (there was unfaithfulness of both sides but they only focused on my sins and responsibility to repair the marriage).
I'm SO SORRY that happened to you, that the shame on top of trauma was heaped on you. I hope you will sort out the truth that you were not the cause, and more importantly that there is nothing that can affect your worth as a "Divine Spark." You are part of God, and there is nothing that can diminish your value/worth. Hugs.
What a surrendering and totally open and honest article you have written here. I am first writing to inform you of my receiving your email and reading it. You had mentioned that you had concerns if people were getting your emails.
Julie, I see so many parallels in our lives happening at different times, but none the less, happening. My honest battle lies with my unwillingness to pay attention to myself in probably the most important areas of my life. Childhood traumas. I was kidnapped and abandoned, yes, by a family member who was also physically and emotionally / verbally abusive. It's had a way of helping me to not deal with and quit looking at other things. It's been so much easier to just say, "Ah, suck it up! Knock it off, it wasn't that bad, you weren't hurt, and you made it out just fine. You're too old now to be pondering the past."
Enough of that. There's been much I've wanted to say to you on several occasions but, shut down. I just found many things you were writing about to be close to what I was experiencing. Well, for instance, we both are in medical and see the insane things happening in that field. I'll just leave that there.
I'll be looking out for more of your articles. I, like you, have many interests and am constantly working on self realization. It's been decades. Thanks so much for the generous sharing. It's well appreciated.
Wow, Lorna.
You and I have been connected on FB for years but haven't ever really interacted that much. I had no idea you were in healthcare (you may have mentioned it before) but you would understand my most recent blog post like few others!
Thank you for letting me know that you received my blog. That is super helpful! I was very surprised not to get any feedback whatsoever as it is such a sensitive topic!
About your childhood: the grief, confusion, and anger that must be buried in there for you...those childhood wounds are incredibly potent until we let them come to the surface for healing. That has been my work for the past 5 years. Ignoring it doesn't really work, as you know. But you have to be in a safe time and space (and with people you trust) to be able to face those things.
I am finding SO MUCH healing and empowerment through my new perspectives from astrology, New Thought, and reincarnation. All together I am learning how to empower myself through my past traumas and make sure they don't keep following me, namely abandonment and scarcity.
Reach out any time if you want to engage on these topics (email or FB messenger). Thank you so much for taking time to comment and share your heart equally vulnerably!
Thanks Julie. I am an RT who bought your book, Raising Hell. I learned of you either through Jim Palmer or Claire. I still have much to study in that area, and am just getting around to reading a book called, "The Bible Tells Me So", by Peter Enns. I've always planned to seek out some of the books regarding Jewish interpretation and realize Peter Enns offers that in this book so far.
I have sent you many informative articles on vaccines and the unknown harm they were doing back in 2020 - 2022, and also several articles on the mistreat and firings of employees, unlawful mandates, and outrageous practices that were happening to patients with CV!9 that were taking place in hospitals in CA and across the nation. I'm sure you were receiving plenty from others.
Just a brief message to, perhaps, trigger a memory of who I am.
Oh yes, it does trigger memory that we were interacting then. It was such an important time to have validation in our medical institutions. I did remember that we had interacted before but not the specifics before you jogged my memory.
I have a beautiful recommendation on Jewish Kabbalah views of God that was my first intro to Kabbalah and made me fall in love with it: "The SEcret Life of God" by Rabbi David Aaron. I also loved "Everything is God," by Jay Michaelson (more Kabbalah).
I’ll put those on my list! Thank you! Are these the early on books you read when deconstructing?
Yes! The Secret Life of God was very early in my deconstruction. It's the mystical view on the nature of God and felt so healing to me after the narrow, small, petty, toxic god of Christianity. The EIG book...it was my first layer of what I'm now really grasping and integrating. I don't remember specifics but I know it was really impactful!
I found you on Rethinking God With Tacos. Wow, our stories are similar. Only, I didn’t come out unscathed from my date with the guy despite my resistance (insert religious shame and isolation put upon me when I shared what happened to me with a mentor of mine), and I’m still on the questioning phase and trying not to shame myself for the thoughts and/or feelings I may experience. My husband is aware of my past with women (2 relationships), it is an open dialogue.
This transparent presentation is clear cut and truly expresses answers to questions on my heart.
Thank you for this.
I just HATE how Christianity blames women for any "disgrace" or moral "sins" and does not support them—even when the women are innocent. In my first marriage during various counseling experiences with pastors or elders when my marriage was falling apart, I was always the focus. Because women are tasked with the responsibility to win their husbands over with a "quiet and gentle spirit." Even though my husband at the time was ruining our marriage with drinking and unfaithfulness, nobody called him out. It was all on me, according to them (there was unfaithfulness of both sides but they only focused on my sins and responsibility to repair the marriage).
I'm SO SORRY that happened to you, that the shame on top of trauma was heaped on you. I hope you will sort out the truth that you were not the cause, and more importantly that there is nothing that can affect your worth as a "Divine Spark." You are part of God, and there is nothing that can diminish your value/worth. Hugs.
Thanks Julie for this. Truly. Thanks
Thank you for the encouragement, Emorah. <3